Another Successful; NO MEAT MONDAY!

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NO MEAT MONDAYYa know, I do not miss meat too much. I could handle not having meat more than one day a week. I might think about that and see what God guides me to do. I thought I would feel yucky or weak, but I don’t. My friends make fun of me and pick with me, because they have no interest in giving up meat, at all. But I just keep telling myself it is my resolution, not theirs. Actually, I am used to people picking with me about how I eat. Since I do not eat beef or pork in the first place. People usually think it is a religious thing, but it is not. It is a health thing. I feel bad when I eat meat. I just do not digest it well. Even now, it has been so long since I have eaten them now they really make me feel awful. I do not make Luis and Isaac suffer to bad though, every once in a while I make them some beef something. Just like the only day, Luis said he wanted some pulled pork sliders, so I might go ahead and make those for them. I will just have salad or something! 

 

I have started to listen to some teen upbringing faith-based CDs in my car now. I am also listening to what his counselor is saying, and I will be damned it is working. The past 2 days in this house have been so much better than normal. I have learned how to stop robbing Isaac of his consequences, and letting him see for himself what happens when poor decisions are made. I can not believe how good it feels to come home and my house is not trashed and the living room is not a mess. It is small things like that make me happy. I have learned how to use the saying ‘No Problem’ and walk away. I did that for the first time tonight and it felt so good! Of course, it got him curious as to wonder what that meant, but I do not explain. Just respond with ‘No Problem’…We shall see. I still have the homework assignment that the counselor gave me, I have to make a list of the household rules. Even the ones he breaks, so that should be fun! Not! The great thing is that his counselor is a believer and speaks about scripture with him. He talks to him and not at him, which is what the others have done. I am really hoping that this helps because he will be in the real world sooner than I know!

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On a brighter note, we have decided to get a puppy! I am so excited to get a puppy and begin training and get walking to the park again like I used to with Bo. It is to young yet, he cannot come home for 2 more weeks. But I am posting his picture just so everyone can see how gorgeous he is! A friend of mine at work has a neighbor friend that has them. Of course they are not pure bred puppies, but who says a baby in this house needs to be pure bred? We are all mixed in this house! I am going to go start shopping for him this week and get ready for him. And I will need to call the vet for an appointment to get his little jewels clipped off :( Sorry, not having any illegitimate children over here! But, we are all excited. I am sure I am more excited than the guys, but who cares :) He is a cutie!

 

 

 

1.12.2014

Yesterday was a real light day on food, I have not been feeling 100% the past few days. I had some cereal for breakfast, then Luis bought me some Hawaiian bread and I had some coffee, and for dinner I made my ‘famous but not really’ mac and cheese :) It is just ground turkey, diced onion, diced tomato, seasonings, and then make elbow noodles and Velveeta for the cheese with some milk to make it smooth. They liked it. Well, Luis and I liked it, Isaac has to complain of course because there was tomatoes in it. Boo-Hoo…Not sure when he started hating tomatoes but I suppose he has…I also had 2 sugar cookies that I forgot to take a picture of, oops.

 

 

 

 

1.13.2014Today I ate more, but I still did not feel any better. I think I feel worse actually, but I do not tell anyone, but Luis. I had some oatmeal and cinnamon apples for breakfast. This is quickly becoming my favorite breakfast item of all time! Since it was No Meat Monday, I had to make a different lunch. I had PB&J, cherry tomatoes, cookies, and a yogurt. But for dinner I started to experiment. I cut up onion, sweet potato, and carrot in a pan and cooked it. Then I added scrambled eggs and spinach and avocado at the end. It was super good! I sprinkled some shredded cheese on it, but honestly I did not even need to do that it was good without it.

I have not been to the gym in 2 days though and that is killing me. I literally feel fat when I do not go. I know I have not gained any weight, but I still feel like a big blob when I just sit on my rear. I have to make sure I go tomorrow, I can not allow my sugar to get out of whack because I want to be lazy!

Well…until next time…

Do I need a Title Every Time ??

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1.10.2014 I tried so hard to find an iota of time to post yesterday and I just could not find one. I have been so busy with work and then I have picked up a few freelance jobs on the side…so, needless to say I have no time for myself left over at the end of the days. But I have still been sticking to my ‘photo what I eat’ project. Although yesterday I feel like I ate breakfast ALL day. And I did. I had breakfast 3 times yesterday, mainly oatmeal…but still.

Isaac’s counselor came over yesterday and met with him and I for a little. He said he wants me to continue doing what I have been doing. Being clear and concise with Isaac and basically giving him no room to argue. I have been doing so great with that, I have impressed myself. So I will continue that.

1.11.2014

As far as my food today I disappointed myself real bad. Luis took me to Golden Coral and I ate like I was eating my last meal! I was so full by the time I left I was miserable. And the bad thing was that was all I ate all day. I did not make anything dinner, nothing. We came home and watched movies all afternoon. Then just now I decided to have a bowl of ice cream before I hit the bed. I was happy that I visited a Zumba class today though with some friends from work. That was fun and I am going back on Thursday night with Luis’ aunt. I really hope she likes it. I know I did.

We took Isaac and a few of his friends to the skating rink tonight so that they could have some fun and be away from parents for a while. I figured once in a while is okay, and he is getting older so he needs that responsibility. He enjoyed it and they are talking about wanting to go again, so I told Isaac it all depends on behavior. Good way to end that conversation. Good behavior reaps good privileges.

Well, need to go to bed…I am wanting to go to the morning service at church tomorrow, so I better get some sleep :)

2 Days in One!

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1.8.2014

I know, I know…I had chocolate yesterday! I was surprised of myself too. But I was literally at my desk falling asleep. I was having such a hard time keeping myself awake it was crazy. So, I decided to get me a little chocolate…it was good too :) I did not really eat a whole lot of anything else so I did not feel guilty. I made a huge veggie salad for my lunch and unfortunately I had to miss breakfast because I was just running so late from going to the gym. Then i just had some plain old Ramen noodles for dinner. Still no soda! Not allot happened though. the day itself was pretty uneventful.

We got a new girl at my job and I am just beside myself about her. She is so rude, and obnoxious. She has such a nasty mouth and makes me so uncomfortable. I am so glad that I do not work close to her, I might need to request a transfer. She thinks I told about her cussing when in fact I was not the only person that heard her. So, when I walked past her she actually called me a B&%$@ while I was within ear shot. I almost forgot who I was, but I regrouped and just let it go. I just kept walking. But I did tell HR. There is no reason for her to be like that. There is a time and place for ugly, and work is not one of them. I love that job and if letting her run mouth is the best thing for me to do, then so be it. People like that will eventually bury themselves. I do not even need to do anything at all. I think I will enjoy the show though. It might become an exciting movie to watch actually! I will keep you updated…

Luis is starting to get the flu I think. He came home last night from work pretty rough, fever and all. I got him some meds and he woke up a little better, but then went back to bed and broke fever again. His silly butt woke up and showered and went to work. Saying he is not around anyone at work so he won’t be getting anyone else sick! I just want to rattle him sometimes he is so hard-headed. He is the grumpiest thing when he is sick too, so of course I am walking on pins and needles in the house. I am praying for him to get better, that can not come quick enough. I am making him salads and lots of fresh fruits and vegetables with vitamins. He has no choice but to get better! I have already claimed it for him.

I had the day off today and I was really worried I was going to sit here and munch and eat all day. But I didn’t, I actually did real well. One sec while I go make a cup of green tea…

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Now that is better…I have become pretty close to expecting a hot cup of green tea, fresh squeezed lemon and honey stick…right before bed now. It seems like it is some sort of routine, just mine. Isaac is asleep, Luis is at work, my work is done and now I can focus on me. I had a day off today since Isaac had an appointment today so I actually got allot done. I went to the gym this morning, came home and got Isaac to go to the doctor, took him back to school, and come home to start cleaning. I cleaned the kitchen and washed the laundry including the sheets and blankets. I got a lot of web work done that needed to be caught up. I have actually been busy and deserve this green tea :)

1.9.2014

Now to my food for today. I think I did pretty well. I even went to the gym today on my day off of work. So that in itself was an accomplishment. But I did have fast food today. With all the running around today I grabbed me a turkey sandwich from Arby’s and some fries. I still did not have soda. I got a sweet tea, but I gave it to Luis because he loves sweet tea :) I decided to have oatmeal for lunch, I was cold from the inside out. I figured oatmeal that would warm me up. It worked to! I snuck one of Luis’ Klondike bars in there somewhere :) And then for dinner I got a little creative. I made a small bag of Rice-a-Roni garlic and herb noodles and then I had 2 chicken quarters from a leftover dinner the other night. I took the meat off and added it to the noodles. Then I took a roll of croissant dough and put some on the bottom of the pan, poured the mixture in it, and then put another layer on top. Baked it and ended up with a sloppy version of a chicken pot pie. The good thing is, it tasted great! and Isaac cleaned his plate, which has not happened in a long time. He usually finds something wrong and pitches it. So, to see an empty plate made me feel good about what I had done. Like I had done something good for a change.

I guess I need to get in the bed, I do go back to work tomorrow. I am praying for good news tomorrow as Luis puts his truck in the shop for repairs. I am hoping it is within budget and will be fixed good as new. We have been using one car and need to have two for this family. We are too busy to be down to one car :)

Until next time…

Suggestions Anyone?

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1.7.2014

This will not be a hugely long post because I have a feeling I am catching a bit of a cold. I am praying it is nothing, but anymore you can never be too cautious. I found out today my boss actually has strep and the flu at the same time! So many of my co-workers are sick I feel like I need to be making hazard pay working in the office with them. Actually while I am typing this I am nursing a cup of hot green tea with honey and lemon. I took a bit of a cold pill earlier and an extra Vitamin C pill already. I am trying my best! My best better be good enough. There have been 2 cases of death in Garland due to the flu. It is scary. But, I refuse to live in fear over it. Life goes on.

As far as my food today, it was real boring. I had virtually the same thing for breakfast that I had for dinner, plus 2 pieces of toast I added a dinner time. But it was a piece of turkey ham diced up and fried with scrambled eggs. Lunch was a PB&J, cheese popcorn, and 4 cookies from Girl Scouts. But when I got home I made a chicken pot pie in the microwave. But, drum roll please…STILL NO SODA! Seven days clean. No soda at all.

So after going to church on Sunday, I left with questions. I have to admit the service really got me thinking. It just solidifies all the more as to why I switched churches. My church is going to be doing allot for the orphans and foster children. Anyone who knows me knows I was in foster care and I have a heart to help fosters. My experience was awful, Hell if you please, and anything I can do to stop that from happening to another human being, I will do. I will now have the opportunity to sit down and listen to how I can help! This is major, because I have always had door closed when I asked to help. This may be a huge chance for me to give back in an arena I am familiar with. We shall see. Also, my pastor spoke of public fasting as a church. I have always had questions about fasting, it has first of all always been such a personal time for me and God. I never want to share that. So I have reached out to some of the ladies in the church for some clarification on this. Maybe I am reading to deeply into it. I just want to go on record and say, I love my new church and church family.

So, while I sit here and this medicine begins to kick my rear end, I have to say Good Night. I am about to pass out at this laptop…Until next time…

My hope is that so many people will start to read my blog that they will start to suggest food for me to try. I love experimenting with new recipes and such. Just remember; no beef or pork and I am diabetic, so not super sweet. But, I can pretty much take any recipe and make it a healthier for me version :)

 

Calming Down…About Time

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I have had a pretty good day today, so far. I feel as though I need to start by sharing my food from yesterday, since I forgot to post it…oops, sorry.

1.5.2014

So, here is what I ate on Jan 5, 2014. Main issue here was that I never saw the inside of a gym! All because of my crazy flipped upside down life, I missed out on the gym. One of the rare places that I love going because it is just me…and sweat! But as far as food goes, I was okay I suppose. For breakfast just some regular multi-grain waffles with PB…I had 2 :) For lunch Luis had found a new recipe he wanted me to try. It was cream cheese, mayo, crab, S&P, and I put garlic in it. Blend it smooth and put it in a pastry puff and bake it. It looked so much better than it tasted. Neither one of use really enjoyed it much. But we ate that with a big salad for lunch, simply because we were hungry :) I made a pineapple upside cake and had a slice of it for a late snack. Somewhere I snuck in a PB bread slice lol…Then dinner was just some slices of turkey and cheese, no bread or condiments.

By dinner time last night I was so fed up with my dysfunctional family I only wanted to sleep, so I made the guys a dinner and I went to bed. There has been full-blown war between Isaac and I for days, and last night was no different. He will learn his lesson soon…Now that he has no laptop and his cellphone has been taken down to Wi-Fi only. No calls or texts allowed in or out. No need to fight with me, when I pay the bill I expect you to answer it. Bottom line :) Hard lessons learned in this house this New Year!

That sums it up for yesterday…now today…

It was 17 degrees when I went to the gym this morning at 5am! I thought that was cold until I saw on the news that there were states in minus degrees~and that the governor of one state, closed it. Yep, closed the state. Schools, offices, and all. I thought it was a joke, until it was announced on the NBC news! But, I was proud of myself, I still went to the gym. I still made the time for me to get there and workout. I am glad I did too because at the weigh in at my job [we are doing Biggest Loser] I lost 2 more pounds! I am so far from where I want to be, but I am getting there.

Luis is working 2 jobs right now, so he is gone literally from the time I go to work until I am fast asleep. He works crazy hours during tax season because he is a tax professional for H&R Block. He does this along with his regular job. He works so stinking hard. I can never say that my man is lazy! It is refreshing from some the lazy asses I am used to seeing out there in this world :) Sorry to be so harsh, but I hate laziness! Once in a while relaxing and watching a movie is one thing, but not working for no good reason is a totally different one.

1.6.2014So, for what I ate today I was really proud of myself. Especially since today is my No Meat Monday for my New Year resolution. And I really stuck to it. I had no meat at all today. Breakfast was simple, I made Luis and I breakfast sandwiches out of eggs, waffles, and some cream cheese. He said it was excellent! That was refreshing to hear :) Then I took a sack lunch to work, 2 PB&J’s, banana, Cheetos, and an applesauce. But I did not eat the applesauce, I gave it away to a friend of mine. Then for dinner I made this spinach and goat cheese pizza. Do not knock it until you try it, because I was surprised I really liked it! I did not do snacking today because I took my lunch and ate parts of it over the course of a few hours. So I did not have any cravings to snack. Best thing, STILL NO SODA! And we are 6 days into this New Year.

Well, today things are settling down a bit in this house. I have been basically ignoring and avoiding Isaac at all situations the past few days. He is refusing to take his medicine, cusses at me, calls me names, screams, slams doors…because why? He does not get his way. He throws huge tantrums like a toddler if he is told no or even asked to do anything at all. So, after talking with his counselor and weighing our options, we opted to ignore. I am not doing anything for him and have not for several days. This includes; cleaning, laundry, cooking, and even speaking to him. When I speak to him,m it is recorded. After 3 days of this I guess he is getting the point that I am not going to reward evil with evil. I walked in today and started cleaning house and he comes in with a bag of cheese puffs as a peace-offering. Assuming of course that my fat ass would be so happy to get food from him. I simply told him that was a nice thing he did and left it at that. I did not take them from him. He is learning the extremely hard way, that the world does not revolve around him. Maybe it will take hold in his brain, maybe not. All I know is that it is much calmer in this house without me arguing back with him. He started to yell the other day and I just told him, Love ya, and walked away. Who is he going to fight with? Not himself, so he slammed the door and went outside. When he came back he was not so much of a jerk. Hoping over the next few days or weeks he will level out. For his sake at least. I hope maybe he is about done with this bout of tantrums since he actually told me ‘Love ya and Good night’ tonight. I told him I loved him and good night as well. That was it. I am not sparking up a conversation with him. Sorry, bub, this time you are on your own.

Now, I am getting a little tired. I think I will go lay down and watch some more episodes of this Til Death that Luis has me watching on Netflix :) Very cute show so far. And plus, I will doze up to sleep with no problems…So, until next time!

 

Just a Mid-Day Rant…Better to Write than Speak Right Now.

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I swear no matter how hard I try…I end up hurting. After so long, I really feel like I do not deserve to be happy. Just when things seem as though they are going great, another road block is thrown in there. Maybe it is not a big deal to anyone else, but I like to be told I am doing things right once in a while. Thing is I never hear it. My kid obviously hates me for being a parent. He has already had his daily cussing me out fit, slamming doors, and calling me names. Then just when I think I am doing the right thing, Bam! I get another guilt trip card played against me. I just feel like nothing I am doing is good enough. I can really relate with those people that are at their breaking point and they just want to give up. I pour everything I have into others, with…what in return? I have not heard thank you once all day, actually been waiting to hear it. Not a sound. I just want to crawl into a hole and stay there for a long time. Maybe until Jesus comes and takes me home. I am so ready. I used to be afraid to close my eyes, thinking I would some day not wake up. I am not afraid of that anymore. Haven’t been in a while.

Until next time…

Fat People Judge Too…

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I made a very good assessment today, fat people judge just as much as fat people think that skinny people judge. I can say that, because well, I am fat. I have been a member of the gym Planet Fitness now for a while, and I love going. But I have seen a lot of different people come and go in my well over a year stint in the gym. Today it just hit me, there is allot of new people here. Then I put two and two together and I realized it was because it is still the New Year and these are the ones that made the resolution to get healthy in 2014! I hate to be like that, but I am without a doubt certain they will start dropping like flies when the hype dies down. There are several different people who are at my gym, many of which I watched, and judged today. I am not proud of my behavior, but I am adult enough to admit it.

The Farter: This is the worst person in the gym! I have on occasion been this person, but I will never admit it. This is the person that works out so hard, sometimes a little gas just pops out! You can not help it and by the time it happens it is too late. They look around to see if anyone heard anything and then act as though everything is okay, while the stench fades away.

The Looker: I can not stand these girls, and yes they are always girls. These are the ones that come in cute little clothes, with hair done and makeup on. Yes, I said it, Make Up! These are the ones that take up space on the treadmill, just to look around and watch other people be serious and actually work hard to burn a few calories. They walk slower than molasses in winter because they do not want to bust a sweat. They really could stay home, but they choose to come to the gym and take up space serious people could really use.

The Show Off: Thankfully with working out at Planet Fitness there are not to many of these. They are normally men who come in a group with their friends and want to show off with who can bench press the most, or who can do the most squats. Something crazy like that. I am thankful for the Lunk Alarm at the gym, so this does not happen too much.

The last one that I believe needs to be recognized is:

The Newbie: I have been this girl, anyone at a gym has been this person. You buy all new workout gear, bag, shoes, headbands, wristbands, and towels. You come to the gym with the mentality of losing at least 20 pounds that same day! When it does not happen, you get a little discouraged and then a little more. The shoes start to hurt your feet. You lose one wrist band so you do not wear the rest of the set. Discouragement sets in. And finally, you do not want to go anymore.

The newbie is the one I make sure I smile at, nod my head at, or in some occasions even strike up a conversation with. Because it is hard. When discouragement sets in, it is hard to come back. There is always something more important or more fun to do. But to choose to workout over one of those things, is a huge thing. Sometimes it is a thing that people need help with. I hate to see all the newbies at the beginning of the year taper off. I want them all to continue. Reach their goals and continue to be healthy. But I know in reality that will not happen. My wish for everyone is that it would happen. That they would find their courage and get up daily and go. Move their bodies.

1.4.2014

Today was a good day. Luis took me to breakfast at Golden Coral, that seems to be a good pre-grocery shopping place. I refuse to go grocery shopping hungry. I ate allot, but I knew I was only really going to eat 2 meals today, so I was okay with it. Then I had a sugar cookie in the afternoon. For dinner we made tortilla pizzas. Mine had diced onion, sweet peppers, sauce, and cheese on it. The men of the house had meat! I ended the night with making homemade cookies for them. They were very nutritious and Isaac liked them, Luis not so much. But, they were good to me :) All they were was oats, apple sauce, raisins, vanilla, skim milk, cinnamon and bananas. Plop them on a pan and bake them like cookies. My cousin gave me the idea, and we all know I love to play with recipes and experiment with food. 

Isaac was sent to bed tonight for just having his wonderful Isaac Attitude. He threw the remote at Luis and so I told him it was bedtime. He of course did not listen, so I turned off the TV and put my foot down. I am not arguing with him anymore. He either listens or there are serious consequences. He went to bed, after calling me names, and fussing about it. But you know what, I still did not raise my voice. I still did not cuss, and I still explained to him why I was sending him to bed. I am gaining control over this house and he hates the new mom of 2014. Yeah, because the one in 2013 was scared of her son. Not anymore. Now, he either listens or there will be consequences. Ones he will not like at all. He still has no computer. And has asked for it several times, answer is still no. He will realize you are not allowed to speak to your mom any kind of way. Maybe he won’t realize it now, but he will. I have more than enough faith in him that he will.

Well, have church in the morning…so until next time.